“Sometimes they say this should feel something like fire
‘Til it burns you and you can’t,
No, you can’t remain the same
Stay the same, stay the same, stay the same
I can’t change
You’re losing your light,
Everything that was yours just does not exist
So don’t even try to say
Sorry for the things in life you might have missed”
(via effstonem-)
So me and my friends from Prince George all decided to pitch in on a nice cabin for the weekend. Just ‘cause it’s been forever since we’ve all seen each other. It was really fun actually. We played some drinking games, and reminisced about our childhood. It was like we picked things up from where we left off. It’s too bad none of it was real. Sometimes I wake up and get confused with my dreams and reality.
Shit.
“What if I can’t forget you?
I’ll burn your name into my throat. I’ll be the fire that’ll catch you.
And what’s so good about picking up the pieces?
None of the colours ever light up anymore in this hole.
Just give her back to me. You know I can’t afford the medicine that feeds what I need.
So baby what if I can’t forget you? I’d better learn to live alone.”
“Come back so I can say thank you for this,
home cooked meals and a place to rest,
my troubled head when you’re away,
I’ve passed the test, I’ve earned an A,
not just in school, but in life,
you’ll always be right by my side.
To help me show, hope to all,
that are lost and sick in this dying world.
I’ll use the love you left behind,
I’ll change their minds, I’ll change their minds.”
Everybody seems to be having babies, or getting married. Hey, it’s your life. Go for it if it’s what you want. It’s just I never expected to see so many people doing it… and at such a young age. How can you be sure that that’s the right decision? I just feel like there’s so much more that they could experience, but now they’re tied down because of a child or spouse. For me it doesn’t make sense. Again though, it’s their life and if it makes them happy then that’s great. For me personally, I would never get married at a young age. Not that I’d ever get married anyways. It’s WAY too much of a commitment. I just think it’s overrated and a bunch of bull. Not to mention a waste of money. And how can you really know if he/she will be the one you want to spend the rest of your life with? I don’t know.. just my thoughts.
Sometimes I just really frustrate the fuck out of myself. I’m arguing with myself and somehow I always lose.
Keeping you as a friend feels difficult at times. Honestly, some days I wonder if you even consider me as your friend. You’ll tell one person that I’m your best friend, but it doesn’t even feel like you ever want to hangout. Maybe you feel it’s not worth your time to keep me around? I don’t want to assume anything, but you have so much free time it makes me wonder what you have better to do. I’m not mad.. I’m just confused.
“And I don’t want the world to see me,
‘Cause I don’t think that they’d understand.”
“Father, father, tell me where are you now?
It’s been hell not having you.
Last thing I heard you were fed up,
You’re skipping town, with no note telling where.”
- Kellin Quinn
Now there’s an aching in my back
A stabbing pain that says I lack
The common sense and confidence
To bring an end to promises
That I make in times of desperate conversation
Hoping my night could be better than theirs in the end.
